again, and again, and again, and again.

Dress with sneakers = sooo do not match,
but it shows that you're yourself :)
normal day today, kept look outside the window.
Gosh, I really really need to improve my eyesight!
I can't see the whiteboard from the back!
Well, I can but it's blur.
Visualiser = OMG really really need to depend
on my friend, can't see at all leh!

I'll throw all your stuff away, and clear you out of my head.
I'll tear you out of my heart,and ignore all your messages.
I tell everyone we are through, cause I'm so much better without you.
Here we go again - Demi lovato :)
yeah, I'll throw away all the post-it notes that contain your name.
I'm so much better without you, man.
I can't believe I didn't notice it until now.
and gosh, you look damn ugly upclose!
Far away you look good, upclose damn ugly like eewww!
I almost vommitted.
You're a jerk, you're annoying, you're a snob.
I was loveblind that time, so I didn't care when you act like a b@stard.
like ewwwwwww, what was I thinking!
and that deep secret of yours, I know everything.
Well, I can't write here, that's all I can say.
If not kena go RCube and blah blah again.
I wouldn't want to make trouble again, would I?

like a stubborn piece of ice atop melted water.

That's right, drums are the only things for me! :)
Kept drumming today during school.
played at the corridor softly, though it's still loud when I try soft-ing it.
Could not play in class, cus Hui Ting will mess up my fringe >:
Sighh..
Today really moodless.
Cried during maths lesson.
''sooooooooo moody today. tears keep coming down during maths lesson. idk why x.x''
This was what I wrote on facebook.
Truth is, I know why. I know everything.

Ugh, I hate saying this but..
I HATE YOU.
I can't believe you'd talk bad about me INFRONT OF MY FACE.
You think I'm really dumb?
Fact is, I act dumb.
Truth is, I know everything that's going on.
I'm only acting immature infront of you.
I'm afraid I'll become a cold monster.
You told me that you are scared when I am expressionless.
And, I wanted to become a kiddy, so you will
feel comfortable with me.
really, I can't believe you'd badmouth me infront of me.
I can't believe you'd join others just because they are what? awesome?
haha.
You really think I'm stupid?
Haha, the stupid one is you.
You shitface.
Would you like it if I told you infront of your face,
you sound like an alien baby, and you look like a b*tch?
Today, I made you realise the feeling of losing a friend.
''Why you ditch me and go with ____ and ____''
Well, I'll tell you.
Because you sound like an alien baby and you look like a b*tch!
You understand?
YOU UNDERSTAND?
''Before you badmouth others, look at yourself first''

ORALEEEEEEEE ):

Omg.
Oral sucks!
I totally blew it.
Gosh, teacher keep asking me questions!
ahhhhhhh!
Gosh, I wanna dieee ):
Well, something that is good,
is that I'm lucky L is not my tester.
If not sure die, cannot concentrate HAHAHAHA.
And, someone, dk who, said that when she was reading the passage,
L was like, LOOKING at her. and like, so intimately!!
You know what I mean!!

''Beautiful in the outside, (VERY) ugly in the inside.''

Sparks fly, it's like electricity.

Totally moodless today.
School- Totally moodless! Well, there were some parts when
I was angry with 1/2.
Urghhh. Even if I was drumming, it was during free time what.
Somemore, you even talk LOUDER than me. Trust me.
And you just suddenly shouted at me to stop drumming.
And what's more, I was drumming softly ok. I really really don't want to disturb others.
And last time, kena scolded by her again -.- She said I was noisy when I'm drumming.
It's not noise, it's rythmn man! -.- And that time was even air-drumming!
I was drumming in air leh, how to have noise one!
Then when she saw me drumming in mid-air, she rolled her eyes.
Whateverrrrr! She knew she lost HAHAHAHAH!
CCA- Even worst! really really pissed off and some parts were moodless.
Pissed of cus laos ppl can get air-con, and we not going laos have to go outside like dogs, go clean instruments?
Somemore they phrase it like I making them, yes making, them lose face.
omg PLEASE. -.-
And, okay, I'm not trying to say like I like face so much, but URGHHH!
Can you imagine? you outside the room, sitting down and cleaning the instruments?!
It sounds more like a punishment for not going Laos.
And what's more,you don't know what the passerbys expression were.
Look at us cleaning instruments outside the room. Look into the room. Look at us again with disgusted faces.
At least give us CIP points man! So we're doing this all for free?!
At least give us a room to clean the instruments! our back were aching from slouching!
SERIOUSLY.
I'd rather play the hand drum all day than sit outside the room, cleaning instruments with disgusted faces looking at ya.
Do you know how it feels?!
When you really need us, you'll stress us all day until we're dead beat. When you don't need us, you push us aside like we're some.. dogs.
at least show us that you appreciate it la!
And that.. toopid N, ARGHHH.
She was sitting on a chair.
And when we come in with the instruments,
she look at the instruments with shifty eyes.
like, checking whether we really put in effort in cleaning or not.
does it even matter whether we put in effort?!
And when she caught me looking at her, with those shifty eyes,
She looked at me with DEATH GLARE.

And I thought band was fun.
Last time, I even wanted to stay back with the sec2, 3, and 4s (that time when they havent left yet)when we're all sitting together, cus they always ask us sec1s to leave first.
I wanted to stay. cus I feel so warm.
Now, I just want to get out of that damn door.
Ok. I'm done ranting.
Feel good now.
I think I'm going to listen to music before I sleep.
kthxbye.~

"i hear music, that's my heartbeat playing."

I love music!
Heelloooo, just came back from band camp!
Omg, there's like so many things I wanna say,
I donno where to start.
Okay, take it from when I was rushing after school okay.
I need to take cab home because I left my camp bag there.
Not that I'm THAT careless lah, but I thought band is starting at 5pm.
That's why! I read the form wrongly >:
Okay so yeah, forced andrea to come take cab with me so I won't be late.
(I'm scared of taking cab alone!)
But in the end, still took bus.
2:25pm. I reached home.
Bathed, changed, tied my hair.
2:30. Eat chicken rice.
Omg I could finish the chicken rice in like, 5 mins!? best record man!
Okay so I had to reach music room by 3pm lah,
took cab to school. $3+ ):
And when I reached school and just practiced in the malay room.
It was soooo boring. I even thought '' Sighh, I wasted $3 for cab just to get here''
BUT I WAS WRONG. SO WRONGGG.
BAND WAS LIKE, SOO FUN LAH!
We played Ice and water(OMG RAMITA RUN SO FAST), uhmm
watch movie (I haven't watched finish Drum lines then fell asleep!)
music chairs,
AND OMGG BLIND MICE WAS REALLYYY FUN TODAY.
HAHAHAHA!
I think we really bonded, thanks to this camp.

Omgg hahaha, everyone keep asking for my 'company' when they wanna go toilet.
And no, the company is not me. It's.. MY LITTLE TORCHLIGHT!
and ahhh, pb mates soo cuteee!
They always ask me ''Come sit beside me''
hehehehehe
I feel so warm hehehehe
Like pri1 little little girlyssssssssssss

and actually I have alot more to say.
But.. just cut short or you'll fall asleep.
ok, that's it.
kthxbye!!

Record a snapshot.

Ahahaha, let me tell you a dream I dreamt a few days ago.
Didn't had time to write an entry, so yeah, now then write.
here goes.
The dream was so vivid.
I didn't want to wake up.
I wanted to continue dreaming.
I dreamt of.. Mr Low. LOL.
I dreamt he cut mohawk (If that's how you spell it)
And he asked me if I want to be his girlfriend.
I rejected him without even a second thought.
This dream was funny, yet it makes sense.
I know that I like him, is cus of his appearance.
It's not love. Beauty doesn't count.
Well, maybe a count abit.
But if I really like him, I would have accepted right?
and today, jia hui told me, that he looked moody.
And when he passing jia hui, he fake smiled. to NO ONE. LOL.
and there was no one behind her LOL.

There are alot of things I wanna say. But I just woke up, can't
remember anything.
School was normal.
PB was normal.
Wait, school is abnormal! There is some flying thingies on the 4th floor.
It's so scary. LOL.

[edit] BAND CAMP TMR!
there's alot of things I'm thinking of right now.
comb my hair before I sleep, so that I won't have messy hair,
don't be abnormal, yeahh etc etc.
yeah.ok.
kthxbye!!!

Racial Harmony Day's Eve!

Heyheyhey all~~~
omg, yesterday drum circle.
GOT FRONT ROW TICKETS TO WATCH MR LOW MAN!
Full view you know!
It was a great scenery!
And omg,
yesterday.. I really don't know what happened yesterday.
Hilary and I were at the 4th floor, looking down at the hall,
the chairs for drum circle was already prepared.
Was talking to hilary, then we saw mr low.
Then we smiled at him, he just..
okay, I don't know whether I'm lying to myself, I don't know whether he really DID that.
He rolled his eyes(he did see us).
I mean, I can't believe it man.
I've always been his no.1 fan.
He got so much attention until become like that right?!
And, alot of people say, that I will have to wait till he teaches my class,
then I will hate him. I didn't believe them at first. But now, I have.
And, this status appeared on my news feed just now,
''Gosh.yesterday Mr Low waved at me and wink at me.i m so dazed man.''

Omg, he winks at people?!?! flirt man! He's a teacher leh!

It's on. It's on. It's on.

Omgg. I love her nails!
Gonna polish my nails that color when I have the time!
Sighh.. our class still want class t-shirt,
and we've been deciding for like,
half a year?! by the time we finish deciding,
school end alr!
somemore the colour they want is yellow.
yellow + sacss black shorts = Bumblebee!
just like the picture up dere ^
LOLL.

LOL. I had a crazy dream last night.
I dream that I forgot to wear Band t-shirt on monday!
And then alot of terrible things happened x.x which I forgot o-o
I just remembered it was terrible. LOL.
ok. So I have to remember to bring band shirt on monday.
Cannot let my dream happen in real life (!!!)

RAWR means I love you in dinosaur language.

Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you. - Times Magazine
Oh, so Low wants to see me? :>

Till this cherry blossoms die, can I dream a love for a moment?

OMGG.
Low's bag was handbag eh!
And no, not those woman kind. well,abit.
BUT OMG, I CALL IT STYLE MAN!
Omgggg, he got taste eh!!
AND I BET HE READS FASHION MAGAZINES.
Omgggg, he's soooooo cool!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Co-operation, gee.

Okay, since it's quite late at night and I got nothing to do, and can't sleep,
I'm gonna write about stuff that happened a few days ago.
Okay. I officially hate the class committee. not all.
I asked other classes, they hate theirs to.
It's because, they hold so much power, they feel confident,
and powerful.
And they start to shout and scream at us in class.
I mean, I don't want a perfect class, I just want a cooperative class.
But, they turned into monsters.
hey 1/2, if you are reading this, have you noticed that only the class committee
is shouting at us? I mean, I can take a few shouts, but not ALL the time.
And, we are there listening to what they're going to say.
I salute catherine, claudine and Xinyi man.
I don't know how they can tolerate the shoutings.
The committee shout at almost everything. And they talk louder than us. still want to ask us keep quiet.
I remembered a few days ago, I was trying my best to find my IHG book under my desk.
WTF. can't they see I'm alr rushing? you think I wanna be late isit?
And renee was also finding her file or smth, and they just SCREAMED at her.
yes, scream. They don't care remember? they're monsters.
And I remembered telling 'lalala' that nobody is perfect. We can't do things perfectly.
And she said 'I got say we need to be perfect meh?'
noob much? Rushing us like we are PERFECT girls, pfft.
they have became the pig from Animal Farm. They changed so much from the beginning of the year, I don't even know who they are anymore.

imy.

''Maybe if I fake a smile for a long time, it'll turn into a real''
OMG.
I knew it. I knew he wasn't going to turn up for assembly.
Well, I'm not sure if he was at the back of 1/3 or not.
Omg, I feel so guilty the whole day.
I couldn't have my afternoon nap in peace!
My stomach feels so hot and my heart feels so tight >:
I feel so guilty. It was me. It was me. It was me.
Sighh...
I wanna turn things around ): I wanna go to the staffroom and find him.
Tell him I'm sorry. But how? If he asks why you say sorry?
What's my reason?
I like you too much until I implicated you?
He'll laugh his head off man.
Sighh..
I just want things to be normal.
The time when I like red cars neutrally, and I don't know you and you don't know me.
Or a better solution,
Die. Yes, die.
Die you, low. Yes, die.
I hope you die sooner, the better.
Though you don't know how much I want you.

That's just shit.

Zzzzz,
why do people want to change for their friends?
I mean, you won't be yourself if you change right?
Just like love, if you aren't meant to be together,
then you aren't meant to be together.
Just like LOW and me <3 style="font-size:180%;">''I'm am this type of person''
I have enough of your shit.
I mean, you are who you are right?
Don't say ''I am a cool type of person, so I'm cool''
THAT'S JUST SHIT MAN.
Why would anyone compliment themselves until like that anyway -.-
Just.. be yourself. You'll find someone who really gets along with you well.

Love me, hate me.

How can I forget you
When your always on my mind?
How can I not want you
When your all I want inside?
How can I let you go
When we haven't even held hands at first?
How can I not love you
when you control my heart?

I'll have to ask myself, why?

PB sec1s is falling apart.
Someone please save us.

I'll be your hero.

Argh,
kind of hate today.
Bad morning = bad mood whole day.
Stupid morning.
Urghh..
We were doing the YOG dance thing at the Hall,
and the 1/3 just can't stop teasing me bout Low -.-
When Mr low came up to the front of 1/3 ,
they all called my name WTF!
And no, it's not only embarassing,
I made him embarassed.
I feel so guilty.
He didn't do anything to deserve this, aside from being cute.
I feel soo guilty,
I wanna run away. Live in a farm. Sing ''Yoleh yoleh yoleh hee hoo'' in the high mountains.
Elope with you.
And I know this is going to be over. I hope.
This is not entirely my fault right?
I mean, what is wrong with liking someone?
Must you really say ''anabelleeeeeeeeeeee.....'' and drag my name until so disgusting?
Are you expecting drama? Or just me being a laughing stock makes you happy?
sighh..
I really don't expect much from you, I just want you to stop the tease.
Tease me, it's fine. But teasing him or teasing me infront of him,
I'll hate you for life.
Right now I still feel so guilty.
I'm sorry.
And I think I'm going to change my name too.
Jane? Sally? Julie?
And be a different person, have a new record.
So that I can lead the boring life, without disturbing you.
I won't find you, and you won't find me. We don't know each other.
I'll pretend your just a normal teacher. You're really just a normal person anyway.
I'll have to remind myself, ''They are humans, they are our species!''
Yes, I should.
Perhaps, perhaps.

sigh..

And, our little skit performance that we put in so much effort,
just disappear. Just like that.
Need us then use us. No need us already then dump us aside?
And I can't believe us, sec1s would be fooled.
No wonder people say that this year sec1s act like b1tches and bossy.
Even I, myself feel that I'm b1tchy too.
sighh..

When I'm kissing you.

OMGG, saw mr low at canteen today! hahaha!
before I saw him, mei ting was like,
''Anabelle! Mr low at cafe leh!!''
Then I was like so shocked lah, (I was running low on elson energy!)
Then I like, talked so loudly
''omg meiting come with me!! hurry hurry hurry!''
then later mr low just walked into canteen and I was like
OMG.
Then I quickly turn x.x
And then everyone kept teasing me x.x
Mr low if you somehow found my blog and read it,
I shall tell you this.
My index number is 4 la not 3!
Look at carmelita for what! Hpmh!

You're.. just so irresistable!

heyheyheyheyhey!
ahhhhh walked past 1/3 class and saw mr low today!!
yay, hahaha!
pb was damnnnnnnnn boring today.
''The door is just there, if you don't want to do this, then leave.''
I'd gladly leave man, I just didn't want to make alot of trouble -.-
If I left the door :
He'll chase after me and throw a stand at my face. I'll then have a bruise and my mom will see it and will get mad and complain to the cca office and the cca office will fire him and we'll get no instructors and random relief teachers will takeover the practice and everyone will be giving me death glares and I'll suffer from depression and not come to school and I will fail my exams and retain sec1 again and I will see my lil' sis and probably be in the same class and it'll be very embarassing and..

If I stayed and continue playing my instrument and dying of boredom in the room:
Everything will be peaceful.

Now you see?!?!?!

You're the voice I hear inside my head.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I may appear damn quiet infront of you,
but in the inside,
I'M SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT OMGGGG! <3
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
This has got to be the best day of my life man!

Shop-till-you-drop!

I seriously don't get all the ''Shop-till-you-drop!''
I went to a blogshop just now,
and I found some cute little hard candies :O
(I <3 hard candies!)
but omg it was 60candies = $6!
And I negotiated with the blog owner for like..
1-2 hours?!?!
LOL!!
And the ''supplier'' of the blog owner asked me
''Seriously, why?''
about why I so save money, cus I made a fuss over 50cents LOL.
And then, I'll have to ask myself.
Why? why I even have to save money over little things.
I seriously don't get it.
WHYYY GOD, WHY AM I BORN LIKE THAT!!

Please don't catch me.

But you're so hypnotising,
you got laughing while I sing, you got me smiling in my sleep.

My stomach screams just when I look at you.

I LOVE DEVIANTART!
they give many many amazing ideas!
If not I wouldn't have come up with such a nice picture lor!
(with so much meaning!)
Omg finally tomorrow is school!
ahhhhh L _ _ !
ahahahahahah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
okay nth much to say actually haha.
kthxbye!!

It's an innocent mistake.

I shall carry on dreaming. :)

If you're the one for me, like gravity I'll be unstoppable.

heyyyyyyyyyo~
today is a saturday,
which means no school!
okay, so gonna talk about yesterday.
omggg, met Mr low like everywhereee!
Spiral staircase, outside bookshop, pass my classroom,
everywhere omggg!
and, can't really concentrate today during class and PB.
gosh, this crush ain't going anywhere.
and because by reading Teenage magazine, Dear kelly column,
they say all crushes will go away.
I hope it goes away soon.
Because I really really need to concentrate during class.
especially about Tn, Pn all this. OMG I donno how do eh!
and omggg. during pb, really cannot concentrate!
And ughh, stupid bossy ppl.
I kind-of dislike O-blood type ppl.
I heard from somewhere that o types are bossy,show off and wants attention.
different types of blood have different personality btw :)
though im o type myself.
I'm trying to resist being show off and bossy.
and the word 'RESISTING' is written all over my face.
sighhhh.
oh yeah back to the topic.
kept being distracted during pb.
and ogmgg, pb getting more boring and boring.
no, it was worse than being bored with nothing to do.
At least I've got smth to do when I'm bored. (daydreaming bout low!!)
And yesterday I got so tired and sleepy,
I hang myself at some railing thingy that prevents you from falling LOL.
And while hanging, mindy went to use her LEG(yes,leg), and lift up my skirt.
I felt someone touching my skirt lah, so I got up and saw mindy grinning while doing that.
I got so angry without my conscience, I kicked her so hard.
After I kicked her, I was suddenly fully awake and I said sorry alot of times!
Gosh, like two different people!
but seriously, I hate people who disturbs me while I'm very sleepy.
at least lift up my skirt when I'm fully awake la, not while I'm half asleep!
That way I wont kick you!
sighhh.

Elson, elson.
stop being so cute.
yes, cute. I like people who are cute.
hot people are just, hot.
and perhaps it just isn't about your looks.
perhaps it was just your personality.
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

Designer sunglasses, living the dream as a teen.

Omg.
before english lesson,
I kept wishing it will be mr low
to be replacing mr chong, as he must go some NS stuff.
OMG.
My english teacher today was Mrs low!
what, you trying to cheat my money cheat my feeling isit!
and omg.
I really really cannot concentrate the whole day,
cus of mr low!
Blame him for being cute! stupid cute >:(
I wish he didn't appear in this school!
but I do wish he stays. sighh..
hmm.. tmr gonna see him again,
during assembly.
Everyone is saying that he smells nice.
I wonder how he smells like, and how he talks.
Haven't heard him talk before.
but oh well, tomorrow changing teacher again.
Hope it's mr low! and hope not too (I will be distracted!) x.x
And, It's not about his looks,well abit.
But everyone says when you act emo or smth,
he will ask what happen.
IT'S NOT LIKE I'M GONNA DO IT,HHAHA PSHTT!
ahhhh he cares~
and omg, my friend told me that he talks like..
got accent!
like those eurasian kind!
I love eurasians omg!
and some say he's gay.
I kind of like gays la,
find nothing wrong with it.
they're born like that.