What can you do, when your good isn't good enough?

k, here to make another blog post, thanks to Jiahui
hahahaha!
okay, so recently, I've been screaming that life sucks and all,
because my life is plain sucky now.
even though I know my life is like, so perfect to another person.
urgh.
I hate hate hate life ):
and you want to know the reason why I keep saying,
I like you, then don't like you?
then like you, then don't like you again?
Try being in my shoes. You'll know I feel, you'll know how fucked up life is.

Get It Right - Glee Cast

You know what you did.
I believe what I saw.
You can't deny forever, you know.
Because you're just living in denial.

And thanks, my awesome clique.
Now I know that I'm lucky to have ya'll as my friends.
That, others take a step backwards, to look at me in envy.
That I have a complete family, awesome friends,
that we all have awesome outings.
My life is so darn, complete.
So good luck trying to be in it.

Because you will never get in it. HAHAHAHA.

so I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
and accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
yeah, I’ll send down a wish and i’ll send up a prayer
and then finally someone will see how much I care
- Get it right by Glee Cast

lately I've been hard to read, I've been too long on my own.

Omg these nails are so cool!
okayy, dk what to write actually.
Urgh, woke up feeling very moody and miserable
I'm just bored.
and omg.
yesterday Jiahui showed me those bung-y kind of hair.
it's freaking cool lah!
they really look like guy eh omg @,@
which then leads me to decide whether I really
wanna cut my hair like a bung.
'C' said that if I wanted to cut my hair like a bung,
I would have to change my personality and my style ):
(Was thinking of wearing a hairband or clip or smth
after I cut my hair so I wouldn't look like a tomboy LOL)
But, it's only cut hair only! Must I change everything?!
and no, I don't have 'reasons' to cut my hair like a tomboy.
It's the STYLE in korea! almost all girls have it lor!
One of the girls are...
.
.
.

WITCH YOO HEE!
It was my favourite show when I was like primary 4 or 5.

I know her hair not tomboy-ish lah,
but she looked nicer when she cut her hair alr.
I want tooo T___T
So, will I look nicer when I cut my hair too? @,@
seriously have no idea.
Been thinking about it for months!

''bad woman, mad woman. That's just what you are..'' Grenade - Bruno Mars

....FUCK.
my earpiece got stolen after Dance and Recess FML.
omg.
this appeared in my news feed.
http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_649165.html
it's from straits times.

Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
'cause if I do that then it opens a door for conversation
Like I want that... I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
- Beautiful by Eminem
I FUCKING LOVE EMINEM!

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don't know~

mehehehe Gdragon *squeals*
okay, so I'm gonna talk about yesterday!
damn fun lah, performed at Jalan Pari Burong Park.
PARK. yes park.
hahaha that's cause there was some carnival there or something.
Yeah, then we performed, stage was super small yadda yadda yaddaaa~
then we ate chicken rice, but urghh fuck those organisers,
we sit on floor to eat wtf >:(
think we dog or what, we performed for you all you know!!
so yeah, then the bus took us to school, wow crazy bus ride @,@
lauren and jos took my touch, and I 'painstakingly' raped them just to get it back ):
okay yeah, then bought bubbletea, slack in macs for quite long,
then camwhored in bus 38 with Joy! hahahaha
damn funny lah the photos. we took like 184739573483 photos!!
but then she didn't post the really really light and the really really red photos. LOL
(you.. wouldn't want to know how we got red photos LOL)
kay, yeah.
so went home and bathed, played comp for awhile, then sleep!
omgg, and last night.
wow weird and crazy dream.
I dreamt of this really cute and 'perfect' guy, somewhat my dream guy? :)
ahahaha nice dream luh. but urgh, It was only just a dream~
):
(It was so real.. He was so much like you..)
How I wished it was real..

Somebody to love, can you hear me?

OKAY, I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY.
THIS IS GOING TO BE A DAMN LENGTHY POST.
went city hall with carmelita, meiting and jamie today!
but then we went bugis cause we got bored of city hall there.
ahhh bugis! I bought 3 pieces of clothes there!
but accidentally bought all 3 yellow lah, urghh.
guess I love yellow too much? hahahaha.
So yeah, and we all bought a jersey that is damn tomboy lah,
but then it's also damn cool. WOOH.
and after going bugis, went illuma and then to vivo!
wow on the way there, carmelita keeps bugging me HAHAHA.
she regrets not buying the ties at bugis.
actually I regret too ): cos we couldn't find the tie shop
after we walked a few rounds around bugis. HAHAHA.
the ties were to match the checkered shirt me and carm buy one.
SHIT MAN THE UNCLE CHEAT ME. HE SAID THE SHIRT
CAME WITH THE TIE AND THEN IN THE END I OPEN UP
THE SHIRT AND FIND THAT THERE'S NO TIE FML.
FMLLLL.
okay yah.



then went vivo, wooh played in the water!
which was damn dirty but at the same time fun lah.
wtf my sock got blown away from the wind and into the water.
and mei ting thought it was someone's pantie LOLOLOL!

and then after playing in the waters,
went to carls jr. but the queue was damn full so
we decided not to eat there.
okay, we were DAMN HUNGRY that time,
we were all groaning and the smell of the chickeeeen
there was like, KABOOMZ.
and then jamie and I decided to go tampines eat,
since all the food stores in vivo is like packed.
so yeah went to tampines, then mei ting went home,
carmelita stayed for awhile cos she wanted to buy ties
in 77th street hahahaa.
went to tampines the carls jr. bought roasted chicken burger.
gosh, the chicken so dry! like urghhh. but I preferred jamie's one ):
and noooow I understand why a burger set is like what,
11-12bucks?!
it was cos the drink was refillable!@@@!!!!1111
so after I finished the drink, burger and fries,
went to refill the drink again@@!!!1!111
and drink till shiok whahahahaha.
then after we ate we went 77t street.
wtf the neon tie is $18+ :OO
so damn ex. so we decided not to buy LOL.
okay yeah, so after that we took mrt home,
and hereeee I am (:
hahaha I actually cut short everything.
kay, shall stop here.
kthxbye!!

Somebody to love, somebody to love.

Somebody to love - BIG BANG

[G-Dragon]
Somebody to love (can you hear me?
I want somebody to love

[TaeYang]
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Lost for a long time, stop
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
Before this long night ends

[SeungRi]
I’ve been waiting for that
I’m feeling it dozens of times
There’s a lot of obstacles between you and me
Also bumped a few times
Were you the one that fell?
I can’t pass all these sort of things

[DaeSung]
I don’t know me yet, excuse me miss
If you’re not sure enough, I got you baby
I defend my girl, don’t test my love
Unlike the other guys, I know what you want

[TaeYang]
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Lost for a long time, stop
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
Before this long night ends

[TOP]
I can’t get my mind past last night
Arrested by your beauty, just two us
(Not enough) Tell me what’s wrong
I’ll command everything that a beautiful captain deserves
Take my hand, be my angel, ring my bell

[TaeYang]
It just thrilled my heart
Feeling all these emotions
As I close my eyes, I’m attracted
How we go, tik tik tok
The time don’t, don’t, don’t stop, don’t stop
Open your heart, make it bounce, make it bounce

[TaeYang]
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Lost for a long time, stop
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
Before this long night ends

[G-Dragon]
When I say somebody, then you say to love
When I say somebody, then you say to love
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Somebody to love, somebody to love

[SeungRi]
Hesitant to do what I don’t know
I don’t know whether I want this or not

[DaeSung]
Until now, I’ve never felt these kinds of feelings
You need somebody to love too
Somebody to love too

[TOP]
Find someone to break up with someone again
I’m afraid you’re someone else’s woman

[G-Dragon]
Someone, someone
What the h*ll is someone else’s woman?

[TaeYang]
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Lost for a long time, stop
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
Before this long night ends
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
([GD]I need you right now so baby, stay by my side)
I want somebody to love, somebody to love
You, you, oh you baby

[G-Dragon]
When I say somebody, then you say to love
When I say somebody, then you say to love
Somebody to love, somebody to love
Somebody to love

On and on the love zone we’re takin’ it in.

Okay, bird. I'm going to free you from this cage now.
If you love me, you wouldn't fly away, right?
If you choose freedom, I'll not stop you.
I'll respect your decision.
So.. I'm going to let you go now.
what was I thinking anyway, keeping you just for myself,
when you already had someone else in mind.
ha.. ha.. ha.

I'm about to lose my life, you've been gone for so long.

urgh, woke up feeling like I'm being disliked and hated by everyone.
idk why @,@

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise.

-SELF CONTROL
trying my hardest to control myself.
losing the strength already.
I know this ain't going anywhere, I know it's going the wrong way.
just... argh.

anabelle, you are insane.
Wake up, anabelle. This ain't a wonderland, a dream, where everything is all
'OH I AM SO HAPPY'.
Just wake up, anabelle.

The power lines went out, I am all alone. I don't really care at all not answering my phone.

So I just go on with life? just like that?

urghhhh, so exhausted now.
Went to school at 7am+, and study and listen to songs in
class all the way to 10am+, when class officially starts.
woah damn shiok man being alone in class,
just feel like there's so much freedom!
didn't really study much actually. @,@ mehehehe
oh yah, and 10:40-12+, maths class over!
hahaha everyone keeps saying I'm like a hangover and drunk today.
yeah I think so too @,@ (lack of sleep!)
and after maths class finish, went to eat at Mos Burger with
Hui ting, glynis, clar ann and patricia!
and rushed to band and stand for whole 4hours x.x
urghhh so tired.
okay stop here~ gonna make another post about another topic later on!

Get up Dre! I'm dying, I need you, come back for fuck's sake !

''Tattoos are art, it's not placed to scare people off, it doesn't mean you're gangster. Everyone's different, there isn't a need for comparison.'' - Naomi Neo

Like, I'm YOUR leader. You're supposed to f-cking be MY mentor.

omgg! Gdragon is hotttttt!
I don't know when I start to like him lah,
maybe like after I watched Gdragon and TOP's music video?
kekeke :B

Kimi wa my beautiful :)

urghhh, I think I'm going crazy.
Yes, anabelle you are crazy.
yes, you are.
x.x

aishhh, tomorrow there's school and cca.
going to emo in classroom at 8+
no luh not exactly emo, just listening to music and study.
I have decided to work hard :)
(or is it because of you?)

Urghh, I don't intend on being friends with you again.
You were the one who betrayed me, bitch.
You know who you are.
and HAHAHAHA I DIDN'T MENTION ANYONE'S NAME!!
SO SUCK ON IT.

Don't wanna think about it (no), Don't wanna talk about it (no)

Cause I know that you're living a lie.

Hey, let me paint this picture for ya.

just like that..? you're going to let it go just like that?
oh, FUCK LIFE.

Sing it for the ones that hate your guts.

<-- HOW I FEEL.

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

What goes around comes around Interlude - Justin Timberlake.

urgh what a fucked up life I have now.

Wish I could just migrate to some countryside with lots of grass

and chew a wheat and say 'YOLEH YOLEH YOLEH HEE HOO''

But no, life isn't that simple.

And I'd wish you just die. seriously.

You can't keep this forever, you know.

Because one day, what goes around, comes around.

Fuck you, your face and your lies.

We judge ourselves by what we feel we're capable of doing. Others judge us by what we've done.

Yay I changed my blogskin!
okayy thought of changing it for like damn long lah
but also never, cause damn lazy x.x
Kind of, a little, just a little, addicted to KPOP :x
ahhh what am I saying!
hahaha idk since when I started to like them @,@
omgg Gdragon and TOP! idk they sung so many english songs!
ohh I'm lovingg BigBang again! dk when was the last time I heard them singing.
2008? 2009? so long time ago @,@
so yeah, I like Gdragon and TOP singing High High,
and Taeyang's I'll Be There english version, and Tonight by TOP and Gdragon.
but... I like KPOP doesn't mean I ditch English songs ok!!
HAHAHA addicted to Whip My Hair - Willow Smith.
woooh she's cool man! should go see the music video!

urghhh listening to alot of Paramore's songs now.
Very vexed and stressed recently, so I kind of want punk kind of rock,
but no, screamos hahaha. Screamos freak me out LOL.
okay so yeah, stop here.
kthxbye~

So Raise Your Glass If You're Wrong.

angry. stressed. sad. pissed.
Don't just judge people by how they look, how they talk.
don't just judge people like that.
I'm still angry and pissed because you called me a gangster, you know that?
I wanted to talk back, but why didn't the great anabelle do it?
That's because if I talked back, you'll just say I'm a rude bitch
that talks back to elders.
Don't just go calling others gangsters as how you like.
Well, will you like it if I called you rude and stupid?
YOU LIKE IT?
I'm freaking angry because 'she' didn't admit that she did it.
Look, call me cybullying or whatever shit, because you're lucky I didn't
mention any names as such here.
You know who you are.
I'm angry and pissed because this is a 'predator eats prey' world.