Wingless Butterfly

There was once a girl that said this, that I did not knew it would make so much sense, and that it was a quote, and answer I had been searching my whole life for.
It was something about humans, are like butterflies. We can't see our own inner beauty, who we are deep down. The beautiful patterns on our wings are just.. Unknown to us.
And the only way you would know what you're worth, is the people around you. Your loved ones.
They make you believe you're a butterfly with beautiful wings.
And all of you are like butterflies with each a different pattern on your wings.
And me? I am just a wingless butterfly.

I felt my insides bleed after taking off the plastered smile off of my face.

La vita è bella

Finally changed my twitter profile and background after like what, a year or two?!?! FINALLY MAN.
Well, I know I haven't been blogging, well I never did since December omfg I feel so sorry for my blog T____T SORRY!!

 

Well lemme talk about what happened over the course of 2 months.
Ever since I got my results, eligible for PFP and succeeded in the application, I've gotten super, super lazy! I swear, when I'm outside whether it's to buy something or like for medical check-up (for poly enrolment) today, I keep zonking out, and people will have to repeat what they say because I wasn't listening and go "Huh?"
It's like I've gotten so dumb after N' Levels ended.

 

Speaking of N' Levels, I'm kind of doubting myself for not going for O's from there? I miss studying, I miss revising notes and books and I miss working hard now. Also, most people said that PFP may not be a good choice because if you fail you go back to sec5. But trust me I was just so, so, so exhausted at that period when it was 2months after N's levels had ended, I thought I prolly wouldn't have the energy to push on through 1 year of O's. I was also very sick of the same ol' environment, same people, same teachers and same ol' nagging, golden rules blah blah.

 

So.. it was time I change to a new environment. To meet new people, new teachers and most of all, NEW CCA! No really, I loved my percussion band family in St.Anthony's Canossian, but I was soooo tired of staying back after school 2 days a week and stand for hours. And yeah, kinda one of my main reasons why I didn't want to go back for CCA in Sec5. So yeah time to say I'M FUCKING OUTTA HERE "whacks vase off and flips table" and sing 
 ♫ it's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life, for meee ♪~
 

Of course, even when I meet new people, I musn't forget about the people whom have stuck by me throughout my secondary school years. I wouldn't, obviously. I love them too much, how could I?
   
Ending off with a gif, 
I say,
Ciao!