You could be happy, I hope you are. 
You made me happier than I'd been by far.

To Be With You - The Honey Trees

Boopdeloop. Hey guys, back with a new blog post. I know I haven't blogged in like a month or so, but hey, least I'm blogging now right? XD
Things.. haven't been very good these past few weeks, or for a month. Or least, I don't feel good. Have a lot to say but I don't think I'll be able to say everything since I was planning to sleep soon, and I just can't seem to string the words I want to say.
First of all, I feel like I lost everything. Literally, really, everything. The old me, whom was carefree, whom did not care of others' judgments, the old me, whom will not judge someone, at least not badly, the old me who'd put others before her, my dignity, my respect. I feel like I lost it all. Yet I'm trying so hard to fight back for what's rightfully mine.
But really, am I creating these in my head, or did I really lost it all? For one, I really do think still sane and I know what I've got(or rather, I know what I don't have), I have proof, after all these years.
I'll fight and stand up for myself, no matter what. Even if it means losing the people I love, even if they are the people closest to me.
I can't make the same mistakes again. I can't.
And perhaps, I lost the old me on the way, fighting for myself for victory. I feel myself changing. I feel myself as a different person. This is not me. 
 On a lighter note, I feel that this year I've finally settled down. Sometimes, I do get carried away and get complacent but I try my best to calm myself and get my head straight on whether if what I'm doing right now will affect my future, and what is the right thing I'm supposed to do at the present time. 
Who am I?
What have I done?
Who have I become?
Who am I....