wounded

IM A BITCH IM A FUCKING BITCH I AM SORRY I AM TERRIBLY SORRY I ALREADY PUNISHED MYSELF FOR IT IM SORRY.. IM SORRY..
FUCK MYSELF

One more spoon of cough syrup now.

3 words. no it's not what you think. It's the type of 3-letter words that common people would use to call themselves when they're feeling out of place, left out. The three-letter word that when spoken, common people would think of only 1 meaning, left out. Perhaps open-minded beings would think of a million other reasons. Maybe a dead pet. Maybe getting bullied. Maybe self-hatred. And these words never fail to appear in a large font in black and white wherever I go.

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 I feel lonely.

For every millilitre of tear you shed, in exchange I will shed the same amount of blood.

I'll bribe you with a picture of a cute kitten so you will continue reading my blog.
You said it's my blog, I can say whatever I want right?
Before you even think of leaving us for other friends, I want you to know you are the awesomest and bestest friend I ever had. I remembered seeing you in primary school, before I even met you, you were holding a Twilight Saga book and had this rectangular spectacle frame (and you still do now!) and I remb thinking to myself 'Oh, she reads Twilight. I'm going to be friends with her in the future.' And I did! I did and I'm so glad I did. & I was really very sure I would make friends with you that time, idk why. hahah.
I'm sorry for being sensitive and the meanest bitch ever alive on earth that deserves to be shot in the head. Please ignore whatever I said before. I don't deserve to be your friend. I deserve having The Most Trustworthy role taken away from me. But you will be my friend forever.
Maybe this clearly isn't the time to say this since everyone is buried in their own shit. But I miss when we used to have fun and chill almost 24/7 without feeling a second of down. I miss when we could talk about almost anything and everything. & this may have been the most stupidest thing I'll ever say, but I will miss you hitting my head cause it makes me feel lyk your smaller sister and I feel sho kyuute! heh :3 :3
Please don't feel depressed anymore. As once an optimistic person who was once pessimistic, told me, you were inside your mom's stomach for about 9months, gave birth to you, raised you up until today. So don't you think its kind of wasted if you spend almost your whole life brooding and dwelling? Don't waste your precious time, it could've been used for revision for a Chemistry test you know? Life is short. Live life to the fullest. God gave you this life to fulfil something important. Mine was to make you fulfil yours ^__^ now go, fly little bird and come back a peacock!! k kidding. But please really don't be sad. I'm always there for you. But you think you never talk to me you cute liddat isit? not cute okay is like shit!!!!!!11111
K honestly, maybe tmr you will continue to neglect me, the day after tomorrow. Maybe even if you tie me to a rocket and set fire, I know in the end I will crawl back to you and apologise and put super glue on your side and stick to you muahahhahahhahaha!!! 
 Please never give up on yaddadadadaaddadadada, k?
k ciao




 

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